sympathy

when people see a rabbit and a lion...
automatically they will go for the rabbit, but not the lion...
rabbit wins the sympathy without any difficulty...

when people see an injured rabbit and a lion...
as usual, they will go for the rabbit and blame the lion for bullying the small one...
again, they show heartfelt sympathy to this little rabbit...

when people see a rabbit and an injured lion...
no doubt, they will choose the rabbit and ignore the lion...
nevertheless, the lion still won....
instead of cares and sympathy, lion gained their apathetic and hard heart.....
such a costly victory...

a lion is a lion..
no matter you're the weaker lion or an injured lion,
in people's mindset, you're still the wild, fierce, ferocious lion..

same things just happen around us..
those who look weaker are those preys who deserve the compassion...
the fitter, the tougher, the calmer ones are always the predators...
for instance, people who are tall and big in size, look rather cool with blonde hair..
they are the lions....
people with smaller size, fairer skin, bigger eyes, sweet smile, speaking with saccharine voice..
they are the rabbits....

so now,
who said internal beauty is more valuable and important than appearances?


lion is always the king of the jungle,
perhaps is not an ordinary king,
but a pathetic king...

*To lion,
Please know your status, wake up from where you fall..you're the king on the top, don't expect you'll acquire any help and cares from others..always remember who you are...*

sometimes....i don't know whether am i the tougher lion or the weaker rabbit....
i'm just behaving like a creature with both criterias..
like a fish.

the moment

1/10/09，03:22:39am
halfway between sleeping and awake
was flipping her book
*beep beep* distracted her.
arrr~where's her phone?

*slide the phone*
checked.
-My Maxis-
-Thu 01-10-209-
-Go to-
-Menu-
-Alarm-

............
that's all?no new message? heard it wrongly again?

she's still indulging in her own fantasy.
it was just delusion of hers.

checked again.

11/3/09, 09:30:52pm
that was the last conversation.
"hahaha, love x 5~"
your words still keeping well in this electronic device called cell phone, and a blood-pumping device called heart.


but there's something missing,
something that,
she really missing.





yes, she's dreaming again!=(
time to sleep....
toodles....

my first timesss

my first time making these cute little braids in phuket island.
really love them =)

my first time playing poker cards on a pool table.
anytime, anywhere.do as what we like ^^

my first time donating blood.
i mean the real blood donation, not the monthly 1...=p

painful?not really =)

this crazy sinmay...
still can laugh till so happy=.=
she was busy talking to her friends after donating blood..
then
her blood just urst out from her arm like blood fountain suddenly..
and then she walked towards me and said:"my blood flows out arr~"
with her funny expression
so syok....

my first time attending a prom night-"live the moment"

i've 'hunt' for many dresses for this prom...it took me weeks to get what i want...wanna go for a simple and cute 1...but seems like...
haha...that's so-not-me.
how bout a noble and elegant 1?
yes, my friends called me AUNTY LIM.

finally i chose the dazzling and striking 1...

alex
tall enough..hehe

joseph
smart enough ^^

kaiyunn
charming...

angel!
sharp and striking, aren't we?

xiao v <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_4JyxRQ72NBU/Sr5SvpKWbrI/AAAAAAAAClQ/7Vb240b5iAI/s1600-h/DSC05094.JPG">little princess grace ~

lovely chiam~

five of us =D
group
with our gorgeous proom queen

my first time clubbing in MOS
well, is that a good experience for me?

i'm wild~*wink*

studies

10th AUGUST, 2009
an important and memorable day for all the A level SN9 students.
i was so nervous on that day...it was totally different from the feeling when i was getting my spm results...
early in the morning, i received the first message from my dear xiao v....
she asked me to check my results online....
oh gosh...i felt so bad that time....check?dont check?or later?
i went back to metroview, and i met alex....
i'll never forget his expression at that moment.
he was so happy.he told me he got 3As...
"eh...serious la....how's your result?"
sorry for my reaction...because i doubted him....lolz!
but thanks to him, for giving me courage to check my results...
and finally..........
this is the outcome....
yes, i saw it for about 5 secs and then i closed it immediately.
why?i was afraid.afraid that my results will change anytime due to any error.
i got a B for biology, A for chemistry,maths and physics.
I WAS SO SURPRISE!
i expect my bio wil get an A and my chemistry will get a B or C.
who knows.......
ok, i'm contented with that.
just that my breakdown of my results are not so good...so i've decided to resit my biology paper...
some of my friends got excellent results while some not really satisfied with their results..
i felt that i'm so lucky.
really.
i do cherish.


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chiam, me and sze howe went to a counselling session in college.
i don't know bout them, but me myself...i'm very confused bout my future..
actually i know these kind of career test or personality test thingy is not really useful for me..
perhaps, i already know what i want, just that i need some other things to support my thinking.
or, i know what suits me the best, but i'm using these test results to help me escaping from what i want.
see how weird am i...
but nevermind, i will take these results as guidance only...
guide me?haha....joke.you know what, i already expected what results will i get for my characteristic test and career test.
the counsellor said that i'm so determined with what i want, and i know myself very very well.
yea............i agreed with her and the next thing appeared in my mind was...
"but........."

see?hesitation..

the counselling session included drawing class too...haha..
each of us is required to draw a picture...draw what?your ideal life.
i was so excited when i saw crayons and drawing paper <3 style="text-align: center;">left side is chiam's
right side is mine.

colourful life, with hopes and loves.
that's what i want.

this is sze howe's 1
simple but meaningful.
but i don't want such hectic life.


i still prefer my aquarium.

cute stuff

for guys..
condom saves lives....
few ringgits
7-11 nearby
it won't cost you much money and time,right?
think thrice before you do it
play safe,
buy condom.

but definitely not this condom....
see properly...
guys, this is not stretchable 1 XD
not chocolate flavoured condom...
its a real chocolate actually....=p

for gals...
yee?
new brand?never see this brand before?
27cm?35cm?
is it for all night protection where we need the most?
is it with dual-layer design for quick absorption?

ah ah~
no.....
because this is marshmallow =D

“鱼”昧

有时候
鱼比任何人都来得固执
有时候
鱼比任何人都更渴望得到自由
有时候
鱼比任何人都痴情

面对着瓶子反映出来的自己
怀疑自己到底是谁？
自己到底在哪里？
自己到底为谁而活？

瓶子固然是漂亮啊
尤其那温暖的阳光 透进瓶子里的那瞬间
就像宇宙般的星星
一丝丝 光芒
融化了 原本属于我的心
我的心，
因你而沉淀于海底了

水里的空气
就只有你的温柔 与 你的美丽

只要你随着海浪漂流
我都跟随着你跨越各大海洋

沉浸其中
这份属与你我的快乐海洋

环绕
我环绕
一直希望
你听见我的脉搏。

奢望
我奢望
一直以为
能够拥有你的呼吸。






他 ， 累了。





瓶子依然是瓶子
再怎么用力
也穿梭不了她
鱼愚昧地
频频用肉体去碰撞奇迹
却换来遍体鳞伤
用心灵去感受 她的体温
却换来冰冷的沉默

再怎么坚强的意志
也都冷却了
都冷却了~

脆弱的心
一碰就痛
一捏就碎
海水在心上洒了一滩盐
洒着属于我们的回忆
一切都溶了
淹没了我的悲痛
爱，而不爱了

瓶子里面到底隐藏着些什么
那究竟还重要吗？
在你空旷的世界里
应该容不下我这一粒尘埃了吧

原来
我们始终相隔着 一层膜

隔着墙的呼吸
是微弱的
是稀薄的

我的无奈
你在里边
看到了吗？

我的挣扎
你在他的怀抱里
听到了吗？

嘴角边的味道
怎么那么咸？
那是海水的盐
还是我对你的永恒不变？



**也许， 为海洋带来一场暴风雨
会把所有的悲痛都洗涤一遍
一切一切 只是以前的一场美梦
做为鱼儿，就要力争上游，
未来
还有更多更多的梦…………**



#待续

那几个晚上

原来
人都是自私的

我好想

好想好想
藏起来

让我大声嘶吼
让我痛哭一场
让我任性一次

让我自私的


自私一次吧

好吗？
















做不到。

bear conference

it has been long time i never touch these cut and paste handiwork...my colour papers and cards are covered with dust, molds growing on them..lolz..
after spending around 2 hours until 2am, these are the outcomes!
yea...i tied a heart-shaped name card on each of them, syombolizes each of us....<3

the winner of the soft toys
thanks~

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positive and negative on vincent's shirt...
was looking at it for quite long...up and down left and right in and out...
but i still cant really figure out what the heck it that...
its complicated...
though it looks simple...
it may look like something, but if you perceive it in another angle, it may be something else...
thats the latent force within my body..
another implication..the complexity is totally out of your expectation..
human are complicated.
so am i.

genting

it was our first trip, me and my college friends...
though we were not going far, just genting highland which is very nearby to our college area...
but we had a lot of fun...
as in like we're getting closer to each other now =)
we have lotsa bonds now..van der waals forces, permanent dipole, ionic bond, hydrogen bond, and whatever bond.
wanna break us?heat us up and stir thoroughly...=p

incomplete group picture

i like this pic...because it was taken by me =p

i will never forget this terribly disgusting guy=.=

so many bears...neh...someone just being too good in playing darts...
and he got all this bears for us..~^^

nice memory....
aihz~we have less than half year to be in the college..shall appreciate the moment we spend together..i'm happy and glad that i could meet you guys...
i really hope that we can go for another trip, maybe langkawi island or any other places...
i'm sure we gonna have lotsa fun..=)
i'm tired organising and planning these things....but i dont want myself or anyone of us regret...
so yeah...^^v
we will see....=)

its not over.

alright alright, sorry for my late updates la, dont bite me please TT
yea, i've done with my AS...was like 1 month ago?haha...
i'm not going to mention anything bout my exam anymore..because i know i'm gone...so..let it be~
it was a dream.a nightmare for me..yea...i'm exaggerating...=p
fyi, i'm back to my normal life~^^v

no more gila-ing in library.

no more emo

no more bleeding...especially for sze howe...
he has a bad habit, whenever he thinking bout something,
he will bite his fingernails sambil squeezing his brain..


so now?
get ready with your test 6..
..............

her story

you packed your things up, woke up from your seat and left the computer room.
next moment, i took my things, walked into the room, choosing a seat randomly and started my surfing...
it wasn't my regular seat, but i felt warm when i was sitting on it.
warm.
because i saw you, on the screen.
it was your profile on the first page, guess you've forgot to log out.
somehow....
that's our predestination, i believe.

this is how our story begins..........

alarm wakes her up at 6.30am every morning.
the moment she opens her eyes, he's the first thing that comes into her mind.
she feels happy and excited to attend class at college everyday, because there's a nameless force that causes her keep advancing..

she talks to her friends, bout anything, and she'll relate him to the topic
though most of the time, they'll laugh.
but most importantly, she feels good whenever talking bout him..
during recess time, how good if she can meet him at canteen, sitting right beside her or just opposite her...within a distance, eating together...
she saw a couple hugging each other somewhere in the college hall...
ah~she wished that was him that give her that cuddle.

when class ends, everyone moving to different classrooms for the next class.
the chances are high for them to meet.
how great is that if she can see him again.
they may be together in a big crowd, but far from each other..
its like 2 dots on the edge in a big circle.
they may pass by each other, side by side, close distance..
its like 2 parallel lines that always move together but they'll never meet.
though standing in front of him, she dare not to directly look at his eyes.
but did he notice me?she thought.

she's a great stalker, her friends said.
she knows where will he be, which class is he having at that particular time..
she'll try to walk around nearby his class, or somewhere he might be appear..
she slipped into this routine from the moment she got his timetable.

she feels happy when she knows something good happened to him..
she feels bad when she saw another girl was together with him in his car..
she knows bout his past, but she hopes that she can know more bout him...
she tries to dig info from her friends and his friends as well...
that's the only thing she can do, as she's not ready to take the courage talking to him yet...

a subtle relationship.
it could be far, it could be near...
i might be a stranger in your eyes, but you're just like my passionate lover.
by seeing you everyday, its like gaining surprises everyday...
it is enough to brighten up my day and i'm still enjoying it now...

people may not understand why am i doing so...why don't i take the step to approach you..
but i think, this is our best distance, at this moment...
i should be contented with it.

did i frighten you?did i annoy you?did i bother you?
thousands of thoughts flooding in my brain now.

oh boy, i'm observing you, but did you notice me?=(

(story adapted from a gal and a boy from tar college , 2009)

** though people may judge you or doubt you, ignore those people because there's some other people that always support you =) ..people might not understand, as long as you yourself know what you're doing.....^^**

A S(hit)

I could not manage to get good results for the trial last semester.
my scholarship gone~failure.
i messed up with my papers in AS again TT
it will be a huge and tough barrier for me to pass...
ouh A level ar A level~
why A level call A level leh?
because A level only aim As......?
till now...i still see "no A" in my hand..i let them just slipped by like that....why ha?
i'm building my own paradise in my dream.
i did a lot of silly and careless mistakes which i couldn't forgive myself....
8 papers to go..=(
it was like game over....but i cant restart the game, and i can't quite the game..
i wish that im now standing at the top of the mountain, the roof of the world..and shout as loud as i can.
im waiting for the moment.
release me.

KLIA lesson

we may not see the end of the road...

we may be afraid...

but can you see there are banks of lights along the roadside,

which are leading you?

we always dream, we cherish hopes..

but there's always something untouchable

something unacquirable..

we may come to a path that diverges in our life...

it is hard to make decision...though we hesitate, we choose not to decide, we pretend to be ignorant, we drag...

yet, we still need to move on..

there may be regret, small imperfection, dissatisfaction...

but we don't have much time to care these things...

be optimistic, get yourself ready, keep moving forward...

when you move further, you'll see another divergence....

~* don't worry, be cing yee ~*

blu blu blu~~~~fish=)

muet part 2

ya hoo~i've done my muet test officially ^_^

so how was my speaking?

i would say.....better than i expect...

i assumed that i would get a issue something like my friends' one, patriotism or organ transplant...which is quite tough...

somehow, i got a shock when i saw mine...

"shopping complexes in Malaysia..."

OMG..my brain was blank at that moment....

the stewpid air cond super cold somemore, my seat was exactly facing the air cond..

so you know la....nervous, cold, shiver, stutter...

but surprisingly, i THINK i did quite well la...

mm....i used to set strict demands on myself in all respects...though most of the time the outcomes were not satisfying la...

but since months ago, i've learnt how to be contented with what i'm having now...

not to say cincai cincai ma ma fu fu la....of course must have some certain aims to achieve...but...mm...there's still room for improvement ^^

i choose not to force myself aymore...=)

eh talk so much....so~!my muet must get band 4 and above ^^v

anyway, good luck for those who are having their muet test this week!^_^

bye muet!^^

random pictures

some interesting pictures that i found in my old handphone..most of the time when im not really in mood, i will automatically smile once i see them..=D
might post them before, but just feel like posting them again now =)

the best and prettiest traffic light i ever saw.

BFF~nigel, ken, and someone.
probably a foreigner?so cute.

fantastic expression came together with the finger.
fyi, that's not my finger ok=.=

need any sunblock lotion?

i saw this on the table in DK..i was thinking what the hell is that...

then sze howe ask me to view the screen from lower position..
then only i knew =.=
the fella is so creative..

last but not least...
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ta daaaa!

the salmon king~
ops..i mean the SMOKED salmon king~
weee~

don't mind for posting your pictures here ya =(
don't worry...you guys look great in the pictures...especially sze howe=p